It has come to my attention that I am apparently against marriage.
I wish I had known this. Instead it was oh so kindly pointed out to me on Twitter from a former coworker.
I’m well aware of the fact that I am/can be a little judgemental of people at times, but it’s something that I’m working on and being incessantly reminded by people like this is not something I need.
I’m also not unhappy for my friend’s that are gettng married and having babies. In fact, I’m ecstatic for them and the fact that they’ve found someone to share and build
their life with. As for me, I’m not ready for that because I’m working on making myself happy by concentrating on school and eventually my career.
I like to think to myself as an independent person. Yes, I need help as much as the next person every now and then. But when I ask for help, I get it.
Apparently just because I don’t and never really have went with the flow of what everyone else was doing with their lives makes me
a bad person. The person also tried to tell me that you only live once. As if I wasn’t already aware, Like, I have scars on my body from taings that almost killed me and I’ve lost more people in my life from a disease that killed at least half of family. I am more than aware that you only live once.
I’ve covered this topic countless times in this blog, and I thought that the next time I wrote about it again that I’d have a boyfriend or something.
Which brings up another point that this lovely person assumed, “I get a sense that you’re against relationships altogether.” Actually no. I love the idea of a relationship and being equal with someone, but no, I’m definitely not against relationships. I’ve just seen some shitty ones happen to firends and family, so yes, naturally that shit scared me, So, my natural instinct is to avoid it.
Yeah, so it’s been almost been three years since I’ve had a boyfriend, who the fuck cares?
With that I am now going to get off of this stupid soap box and continue to just as they say, “do me”.