Summer, stress and getting lost in the library.

Now that it’s summer it’s time  to de-stress and lick wounds from the previous years punches and jabs. But not all of us are that lucky. This summer so far has been a stress filled one, so the wounds that I’ve been trying to heal keep cracking and bleeding.

Earlier tonight my mom and I sat  down and watched a movie together (which is something that doesn’t happen all that often. The movie was Eat, Pray, Love and yes, I was one of the naive and wishful girls that ran out and bought the book when it was released because at the time I was seeking something, I just didn’t know what exactly.

Tonight while watching the movie and explaining what little I remembered of it to my mom I had a strong desire to go find my copy and bury myself in it again and come out on the other side washed free of all of the stress and worries that I let consume me on a regular basis. To reiterate this past year at school kicked my ass all over the place. My suite-mates were ridiculous and loud and I like to be a hermit some times and lock myself away and some of my classes were stressful, but I managed to pass them by the skin of my teeth and I don’t want that to happen next year. I have a goal GPA to reach by graduation, dammit!

With all of the stress that I’ve been feeling this year it only makes sense that I would want to do something big and refreshing to prepare myself for school next year. Butttttt since I’m currently unemployed for the summer and summer classes start soon for the next eight weeks I can’t really do much except hide myself in the library and try not to feel bad for myself and live vicariously through the protagonists in my books. Although regrettably some times that’s not enough because I want to be doing the things that I read about. For example, I just finished reading Anna and the French Kiss by Stephanie Perkins and even though I could tell what was going to happen in the end before I was even there I still fell in love with  every character in the book (which I think everyone has a problem of doing) and it was a bittersweet feeling to finish it.

So, in hopes of keeping my sanity intact this summer and my unemployment status changing soon I’m going to keep checking out books and even look for Eat, Pray, Love at the library because I have no idea where in my scattered across the state collection of books where my copy is and hopefully I will begin to feel a good portion of my stress lifting before school starts back up i n the fall.  If you are interested in what books I’m reading you can be my friend on Goodreads.

I think that’s all for now. I’m going to try to keep the blog updated this summer but until I get a new computer (I want a MacBook Pro) and have gas money to go to the library on a regular enough basis to write, but there’s no promises.

Here’s a little something to make your day better!


Get me some sunglasses, because my future looks bright! BEDA: day 3

My day has been literally electrifying. Like, I accidentally electrocuted myself this morning plugging my phone charger into the wall.

My day started off like any other; stressing about school work and a test that I had on Monday that I’m really hoping I didn’t fail because I studied for it. Among my current list of stress inducing things was my interview to be an RA last week. The e-mails were sent out this morning and I was so nervous to open it that I asked one of my professor’s and friend’s to open to take off some of the sting. Looking back now my fear was for nothing because I have been chosen as an alternate.

Today, one of my close friend’s that just recently had a beautiful baby boy brought him to the newsroom when I was in there checking my e-mail, and while I’m not the biggest fan of babies, her son was an exception. Another fun development for the summer is in the works with my friend is possibly in order, but all of that information is currently under wraps until the Public Relations firm that my friend is working with right now okays my tagging along.

As the semester comes to a close and I start compiling mountains of research for my last two papers for my Communication classes and marking up my books for the last three tests I’ve started to notice something. I’m becoming quite the perfectionist, which is a good thing and a bad thing because I don’t know if I could handle that type of pressure on myself. In the long run I think that this newly realized whatever you want to call it is going to be a good thing, especially for a PR professional.

Why I hate summer vacation: BEDA day 1

In the real world you don’t get summer vacations.


Once you’re an adult summer becomes a lost concept. Unless you have school aged chldren that get a summer break at the end of the school year, or you have younger siblings. Most of my friend’s are already planning big expensive trips to fabulous destinations for summer break and then there’s me. I will be spending the first eight weeks in a classroom getting my Biology and one of my math credits out of the way because I’m chomping at the bit to be finished with all of my gen eds and conquer my major classes. The rest of my summer break will be spent working part-time and hanging out with my family.

Yes, I am boring. But I’m also a poor college student that doesn’t have the means necessary to save up for an awesome trip, yet. Plus my future looks brighter everyday because I want to get out of Missouri like it’s nobody’s business. I actually have found my dream job, working for the Public Relations department of The Penguin Group in New York City. Of course, they already have the job that I want to be, but first I need to graduate and have those credentials as well as two more years of experience. But one day I will be where I want to be.

One of the major reasons that I’m not the biggest fan of summer vacations, at least while I’m in school is not because I’m a stick in the mud. It’s just more of I’m a fiend for knowledge, and I like to be busy a good portion of the time. Disclaimer: this does not mean that I like to run myself into the ground, but I will if I have to to get the work done.  So I guess that the lesson to everyone in this is to work hard while you can so that later you can enjoy things like vacations that you can enjoy.